Sunday, April 19, 2009

The Sitch-ee-a-tion

Sorry about the cryptic and infrequent posts as of late.

Basically, for many many reasons, I am considering not taking any more grad classes after this semester is over. I'm not trying to be vague. I'm just trying to hold back while simultaneously venting (very hard to do).

I have about 4 classes left to take before I have the degree, and that is a major reason to continue. I truly believe in my ability to get it done.

However, that isn't the question I am struggling with. The question is: "at what cost?"
because grad school is taking a lot of attention away from areas in my life that are way more important to me. Family, Church, School, Personal life, TV, etc. (only half-kidding about the last one, even less so now that I have DVR).

So even though I know I can do it, I just don't know that it's worth doing. The degree it will give me really won't open any doors for me that I particularly care to open. I just want to be in a classroom and the opportunities available to me post-degree are mostly outside of the classroom. Meanwhile, it's actually taking me away from my own classroom by forcing me to concentrate so much time on it.

The answer seems pretty obvious to me when written out like this, but it has taken me quite some time to reason it out in my brain. Meanwhile, my pride is still telling me I can do it all and to go for it. I don't know how to deal with quitting.

Furthermore, I had been planning on continuing at least for another year. And I had put certain decisions off until that time approached. If I quit, those decisions no longer need to be delayed, and that itself is putting a lot of undue stress on the situation.

Could you just tell me what to do? What decisions I need to make? Or at least ship me a crystal ball? Thanks...

Sunday, April 5, 2009


My priorities have to be in line for my life to be in balance.

Right now, I'm off-balance.

I'm currently in the process of determining those priorities. Or at least reminding myself of what they already were.

My priorities have to be what God's priorities are for me... what He has called me to do with my life.

And I must get rid of the things that rob me of that.

"Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. Consider him who endured such opposition from sinful men, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart."

My theme for the month.